The past few days have been hectic. I have been embarking on an inward journey. Taking a break, pulling myself inwards, and introspecting my life is something that I usually do. Today is my birthday. I’m turning 23 today. I never felt anything special on my birthday in the past apart from receiving wishes from my friends and family. But this year, I am feeling something different from past years. It is a good feeling, though. The past few years have been a real struggle for me. But somehow, I am managing to fight against both inner and outer demons.
Twenty-two was a chaotic ride. Maybe it is because I am growing and changing constantly. Or it might be a period of transition towards a new phase of my life. Perhaps I am struggling because a part of me may not be wanting to leave the irresponsible youth, or it also could be the part of me that is really not great with change and exploring the unknown. Sometimes it feels like I am losing myself. I have never felt like myself for years. But I accept this phase gracefully with gratitude. I am learning and growing. I’m learning to go with the flow. Not only that, but I am using this period to retreat and replenish my soul. There are moments in life where you have to sit back and let things unfold in their own phase. Resisting will do no good. But I am happy. Because I will not let myself fail. It is not in my blood.
Even though I sound sad and depressed in the previous paragraph, I am really excited to face this year ahead. I look forward to facing this year with grace and radiance and can’t wait to know what this year holds for me. I have new hopes for this year, and I have new plans for this year. Stepping into a new era of my life, taking on new responsibilities, and making myself open to new opportunities and adventures. I feel all this was a part of my reinvention and transformation to a better version. With the blessings of the universe, I will continue to shed my light all along.
I am hoping for a year that nourishes my soul. Filled with days when I sing the music of the sun and witness the blooming of ultraviolence and ascend to the sacred dimension.